I wouldn't quite call it that but spending the day with Nine Lives Media is something I won't be forgetting anytime soon..!
Appearing on TV has never been a part of the 'big plan' - I can't really stand any sort of attention, and the thought of appearing on a national television channel has been incredibly daunting. The past few days have meant my stomach has been in knots, and it's been hard to concentrate at work in particular. Restless nights and funny dreams in between the broken sleep are a sign I'm stressing out, but knowing the reasons behind this left me feeling excited in the end.
Friday morning was obviously stressful. I knew the crew were coming at 11am, and the house needed to be spotless. Cue one frantic Kim cleaning the house and using her sister's bedroom as a storage warehouse for the day PLUS I had woken up realising my eyebrows looked flippin' awful so somehow I squeezed in getting my eyebrows waxed (why do these things just creep up on us ladies?!)
Our day started with a general interview first thing, talking about my personal experience and my own mental health journey. It was definitely tiring - it always is when you're going over something you've gone over a hundred times with doctors. But this time, the tiredness was 100% worth it. Despite the odd giggle here and there, I soon got used to the cameras in the lounge, and I felt comfortable talking to Johnny the presenter. Knowing that I was talking about something so personal to help other people gave me such a sense of achievement, and will definitely be one of my proudest moments to date.
We trekked into the city centre to visit the shop I have got my wedding dress from. It all felt a bit strange considering I'd already picked my dress! We picked out three completely different and random dresses, in the hope that I wouldn't be trying on something similar to what I already had, and it would be unlikely I'd fall in love with a whole new dress. Then I tried on dress number three. Oh dear - I fell in love with it! With it's Jenny Packham style, I felt like something out of a vintage literature novel, and I was surprised how much I loved the dress considering as to how completely different it was.
Anyway... enough of dress talk. After a quick stop for a bite to eat it was tie to head on back to mine for more interviewing, a feature of this very blog, and a chat with my other half, James (who was incredibly anxious about going on camera, bless!)
It was a tiring day, but not one I'll forget any time soon. The people at Nine Lives Media were lovely, and it was just so nice to put faces to peoples names after exchanging goodness knows how many emails and text messages. They made me feel completely relaxed and helped me realise I was making doing something so positive from something that has always been a burden to me I suppose.
Next week sees me going all the way to the Lake District for a Mindfulness retreat. Exciting and petrifying are the two words I would use to describe how I feel about this... travelling? For that long? On a train? AND staying there?! I'm praying I can do it, I know it's almost necessary for me to go for my own wellbeing but the thought is completely daunting to me right now. I struggle eating at places I don't know, and leaving behind all my home comforts is terrifying. Keep your eyes peeled for how it all went very soon..! x